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  1. 5 points
    I actually canceled the wig and rarely wear the one I did get. I really think I was just emotionally all over the place at the time I ordered them. I've found that wearing a turban or scarf is way more comfortable and cooler and are my go to when I go out. When around my family I just rock the natural bald look - well stubbly look at this point lol. I know it's been a while since I've updated my blog so here's a bit of what's been going on: This Saturday will be 1 wk since I've been on the chemo pill Tagrisso and so far so good. I go back in a week for them to do an EKG and labs to make sure all is going A-OK. The fatigue of the radiation seems to be wearing off as I've had more energy this week however the loss of appetite is still there even when my stomach growls. I make sure that I have protein shakes on hand and try to eat several small meals through out the day. At first I was more worried about eating all 'good foods' but for now I just eat what I want so I'm not losing weight. I figure better something than nothing. I also set up an appt. to speak with their counselors hoping they would be a good sounding board for me, I've never been to one so not sure what to expect. In the mean time and in between time we try to get out at least 3x during the week which is perfect. On the off days we just Netflix and chill. My sister is joining me for yoga classes for cancer patients at our local YMCA and a mediation class once a week. We also booked a trip to Orlando in October for a girls only trip so looking forward to that. Other than that I'm just taking it all day by day and keeping up the good fight! I know theres alot forgetting and will try to update more as I go along.
  2. 4 points
    I'm actually enjoying this relaxation thing. My body can feel it and is saying 'UM HELLO - THANK YOU!!' I don't feel near as tense or amped up and my back has already loosened up from just a few hours of chilling. We just put an an oldie but goodie - Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom! Some background noise to take a nice nap to. The pups are being sooo good. Definitely some rib bones coming out tonight when all is said and done. I did really well driving myself today, was a tad nervous but did just fine. I used to take that daily route every workday before they moved our office so being familiar with the area and knowing the backstreets helped a lot. Only 4 more radiation treatments left and each one seems to go by faster than the last. And talk about a small world!!! Turns out the A/C guys that are here doing the install happen to be an old friend from high school and his two sons! On top of my mom being close with the owner and them all knowing my situation just makes me that much more at ease!! I told them to just take run of the house and if they needed anything from us to just knock on the den door and let us know. It's so funny how things just seem to work out when they do even when everything else seems against you. I'm just going to enjoy the good vibes of this week and maybe even catch a kat-nap!!
  3. 4 points
    Michelle, you're not the first one to relapse time and time again and you won't be the last. I wish you would treat our board like one of your meetings. Instead of smoking, come here to a "meeting". Have the same mentality you did for your other addictions and I guarantee you will be successful. Is it frustrating watching you give up so easily, yes, but that doesn't mean we're giving up on you. You can succeed you just need to believe in yourself.
  4. 4 points
    Michelle - I understand that junkie mentality all to well TRUST ME - just 1 and it will be ok, then 2 then a pack and back to full blown smoking, quitting, smoking UGH it's a vicious circle BTDT. It's denial ,denial, denial, no other way to put it. And you are right, it's something only YOU can have control over. There is no one there twisting your arm except your own mind. Step over to my thread for just a moment - hmm yup same threads/posts I used to avoid ALL THE TIME too because of that SAME denial and junkie mentality. Hopefully it will help you a bit or if nothing else scare the crap out of you. Either way the choice is always yours and I hope that you can stop this cycle for your own peace of mind. I'm finding we are all stronger then we think when it comes down to it.
  5. 4 points
    Yaa....Take smoking /Vaping off the Table ... You will soon start to see and feel the beniefts...If only takes 3 days for the nicotine to leave your body ...after that it just you and that nico monster .. That taps away at you ... Your stronger than him ..
  6. 4 points
    I found I was much stronger in every aspect of my life ,and it's problems ,once I quit smoking....I face stuff head on with more calmness .... Not being anxious over the next fix .....let's you face things much better ...head on !!!
  7. 3 points
    If it feels too silly you can use a cut straw or a pen instead of the invisible cig I used. One of our members used licorice for hers which I wish I had of thought of lol. Hope it helped you get past your craves?
  8. 3 points
    Richard, we understand your grief. Know that we are here if you need us. May the love of your family help sustain you in this sorrowful time.
  9. 3 points
    Thanks for checking in - I just ended up getting wrapped up in the day that was supposed to be 'relaxing' but turned out to be one of those unexpected busy days. Never did get any sleep much less to really sit down until bedtime at 11 and now it's 3AM again! SIGH.....my new 'wake up' time. Hopefully I'll catch some zzzz's around 4ish before the house starts buzzing when my BF wakes up. Oh how I made such a mess of things yesterday lol - I woke up to hair just pretty much coming everywhere and clinging to everything! So thought I'd take control and empower myself by just buzz cutting it. First I did take a little bit and saved a small pig tail of it. But ugh after that what a hot mess that turned out to be I started with the #2 guard and was like NOPE that looks really sloppy. Then moved to the #1 guard and things went from bad to worse! I finally gave up trying to be 'neat' about it and just swept it all up and threw it away. I never thought I'd do the wig thing but since my ins. is covering it and not costing me a dime I figured I'd take advantage of it. Then about the time I was going to eat and take a nap my phone started blowing up. It was my insurance letting me know the Dr's tried to put the claim under pharmacy and that was holding everything up. So rather than try and call them and sit on hold and the wait days for them to get to it I just drove up there and had them resubmit the claim correctly. While I was waiting the stylist went ahead and cleaned up my head for me - now it doesn't look like a 2yr old did it lol. But by the time she was done everything was already approved and I was able to walk out wearing the wig I picked out a few days before! So she spent a good 2hrs with me showing me how to take care of it etc. Then I actually ended up order another one before leaving just because! Both are by Raquel Welsh - the first one is called Show Stopper but the name is misleading. To me it's just a very casual just past the shoulders everyday look. But the 2nd one I chose was the Limelight - which is really long and curly and there's ALOT you can do with it. I go back Monday since they had to order that one. I'll post pics of what they look like at the bottom. But by the time I got home I realized quickly how hot a wig can be! I took that puppy off as soon as I hit the door and rocked the t-shirt turban all day. When I went to try it on to show my BF I realized I need lots more practice with these things. He really like it though! Said had he not known what my real hair looked like he would have never guessed it was a wig. But I went from a brunette to a red-head with high lights. Figured I might as well switch things up!! But to be honest the turbans and scarves seem way more comfy and easy for now. My sister got back in town tonight and wants me to come hang out at the river house with her tomorrow - I think a change of scenery will do me good and I can't wait to catch up with her. So I have all sorts of goodies packed for a day of just fun and sister stuff!!! Hopefully I'll be able to catch a morning nap this time before heading out. But if not I know I can just crash out there peacefully. Ohhhh and my Deadpool PJ's come today!! My BFF ordered them from Amazon so I'm super excited about that lol!! Still haven't gotten around to the mask yet - forgot about paint fumes/marker fumes so trying to figure out if I can just get colored duct tape and do it that way. I'm sure I'll think of something!! So until then TGIF everybody!! It's the weekend, time to relax and enjoy it because we earned it!! This is the 'show stopper' or casual and this is the 'limelight' a bit more dressier. Digging the red though.
  10. 3 points
    Round one complete, and it's Team Deadpool's hellkatbaby for the win!!! Ugh on the hair loss, but as everyone has said, it will grow back. It will be like that really short haircut you get and then aren't so sure about for a while, but it all works out. In the meantime, you are going to ROCK the bald and beautiful and will probably end up becoming a famous turban designer and we can all say we knew you when. Speaking of rocking it, Tank is owning those devil ears and what a sweet baby smile he has. Luna is gorgeous, too -- that's a beautiful pair of pups you have taking care of you. Time for more rib bones. Yoga on the beach sounds like a perfect way to relax, so hopefully your docs will give you the go ahead. Otherwise, maybe that group has other meet ups that you can attend until you're beach yoga ready.
  11. 3 points
    We'll be right beside you tomorrow, celebrating and ringing in the end of round one. Here's to you and to all of your spectacular tomorrows to come!
  12. 3 points
    I'm ready to find my zzzzz's again that's for sure! hopefully it will find me tonight . If the pups wake me again I just might start crating them at night. I hate to do that because they are really good and only falling into step with my whacked schedule and I feel safe with them but we ALL need to get on the right schedule again. Gotta love them though!! Today was a nice chill day - I didn't bother with any household chores aside of making something to eat and then turned my phone on silent and just relaxed without feeling a bit guilty about it. Even though I wasn't able to 'nap' I was able to recharge which is just as important. I still do my exercises and mindful breathing. Last night I was so relaxed afterwards I couldn't even bother to write in my journal - kept finding myself nodding off lol. I could crawl into bed right now honestly but holding off to see if I'll be able to sleep just a tad later. Tomorrow is my last day of radiation and I get to ring to bell from round 1!! I'm going to have the nurse use my phone to take a video of it of course and then take my mask home and get to work on detailing that sucker out Deadpool style! Then I'll have the next 2 weeks to get into a really good routine before round 2 starts. My sister should be back in town mid-week and I can't wait to just see her and just hang out. She texted me late the other night and seems their trip and turned into more of a nightmare and she is ready to get back to Florida and take a vacay from her vacay. and selfishly I'm ready for her to be back. So here's to tomorrow - me ringing the bell and getting my mask! Oh yea!!!!
  13. 3 points
    I love the way you meet everything head on and throw yourself into researching, learning, and doing all you can to get yourself in the best physical and mental shape for this battle, and I have no doubt you will beat this every step of the way. So glad you have peace on mind and can relax today -- some days that's the best medicine of all. After I read your post, I went and filled my water glass, so thanks for the reminder to keep up this simple healthful habit. Wishing you a great relaxing and recharging weekend, with some fun thrown in.
  14. 3 points
    I'm getting there and fighting the whole way! I was able to sleep after my post last night even if it was for a short few hours it was nice! I'm holding out tonight hoping if I go to bed later then maybe I'll sleep a bit more. Worth a try at least. This AM after treatment I finally had to cave and go to Walmart. I needed to pick up on the bulk stuff and figured since it was early in the morning it wouldn't be to bad. Of course I ended up spending way more than I wanted (again). I've really got to get that under control lol. But nothing I got will go to waste for sure! I did pick up a $5 T-shirt that said 'I rolled my eyes so HARD I could see my brain!' I figured I'd wear that to tomorrows treatment . And I tossed a few yoga type pants in the basket since comfy style seems to be the easiest. Once I got back home though and started putting stuff away there was no stopping me - I was the little energizer bunny just pounding around the house. I feel like I'm going bonkers!! I must have re-arranged my kitchen cabinets 100x. Just crazy!! Like OCD type crap. I think I spent and hour on just arranging the spices alone.....WTH? I was such a creature of doing what I wanted, when I wanted and how I wanted and now I'm all Sally Homemaker and it's driving me nuts!! I want to go outside and take a walk but with the heat index at over 100* psht - NOPE! But I cant stay in these 4 walls much longer. I mean these daily trips here and there are fine (as long as I leave my wallet at home) but I want OUT! I feel I NEED to be doing something I just don't know what that is yet. I mean I'm being productive and active at least but I feel I just need something more. I guess with time and patience I'll figure it out. Baby steps. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!! Actually everyday for me is Friday it seems lol! And this weekend my son and I have our lunch or dinner date. That's that one time I don't worry about what I eat or think about what I'm going through - I just enjoy the time we have and make every second with him count. My sister should be back from out of town by next week and regardless of how things went before she left I really cant wait to see her again. I need my team back!! After the weekend I'll be down to my last 2 treatments then onto the 'pill' two weeks after that. I don't really like to stop and think about it much - sometimes the rabbit hole can get too deep and that's a place I don't care to venture down right now. My focus is good thoughts and vibes all the way!! Hope everyone has a good night!!
  15. 3 points
    Excellent suggestion. Thank you. And I'm the special one too...lets go build our own special people island where smokings not allowed lol
  16. 3 points
    Richard, no thanks is needed. That is what we are here for. We want you to be able to achieve the same success that others have helped us achieve. Please, Please reach out to us at any time.
  17. 3 points
    I'm happy you took the time to reason things out properly Kate because that's very important! Our minds play tricks on us when there's an addiction involved. Our mind suggests relief from our struggle will be the reward if we give in and light up but that is just a lie. The truth is, we will be back in chains again, a slave to this addiction that brings nothing but misery and even death. Many have come to this realization too late - AFTER they went and bough that pack and lit one up! Stay strong because you are really doing a great job and this post proves you know how to rationalize the pros and cons of smoking. That's a very useful tool to have at your disposal going forward!
  18. 2 points
    Thank you for the update hellkat, I'm glad that the chemo pill hasn't caused extra side effects. And I'm glad you're getting your energy back. Just remember to listen to your body and not overdo it. I drink Boost plus to help me gain and keep weight on. They have 360 calories each plus lots of protein and vitamins. Orlando sounds like a fun time with your sis, the weather should be nicer then too
  19. 2 points
    yes, go to positive reinforcement. The body misses the bump of endorphins that nicotine corrupted so when you are in a crave, force yourself to think of something beautiful, something in front of you or a happy memory. This will jump start the flow of endorphins. Deep breaths of oxygen do the same as does physical movement...music/dance. (move a muscle, change a thought) I walked down to the tracks and did primal screaming when the train rolled by. very satisfying. You quit smoking, Kate ! You don't smoke anymore. Celebrate this every moment.
  20. 2 points
    Use whatever works to get past the craves Kate. I kept telling myself this too shall pass. Over and over again while puffing n my invisible air cigarette. I promise you with each crave you defeat, the next one is easier. You're doing great
  21. 2 points
    Now *there's a thought! Good idea, especially when I read the complaints online (on America's favorite online place) about various juggling ball sets. I want the kind that don't roll away. I have that kind, and spend more time searching out the balls under furniture than juggling. Thanks, Jillar, great idea.
  22. 2 points
    Yes, and now, again. I just finished watching a charming movie before going to bed. Now is when I would have smoked. Instead, I practiced twirling my pen between my fingers for a minute or two. It's tougher than it looks. Started off with the pen as pseudo-cigarette. I think I'll order small bean bags online and learn to juggle through my cravings. It'll be a new skill. New neurons forming and old ones being pruned away.
  23. 2 points
    use it to give yourself a hit of OXYGEN !!
  24. 2 points
    My deepest sympathy Richard .... You are in our hearts and thoughts at this sad time ... I'm lost my partner in May to this horrible illness....after a 15 year battle .... We do understand your pain .... xx
  25. 2 points
    Richard, just like Linda said, we'll be here if you need an ear....
  26. 2 points
    Look at you go super hero. After that initial loss with the hair, give it a day or so and you don't notice it. Just remember when it grows back it's an exciting new present .... it could be the same or completely different. Love the wigs you chose though, they are very nice.
  27. 2 points
    Well I know where I am going to come when I have an insurance question. I think the Cleveland Clinic has the worst billing system. I can't tell you how many times I have received a bill a year or two after the fact. I have gone and sat with their billing people and come out with my head spinning. They are making it more and more confusing. Hellkatbaby, I know you must feel exhausted but sleep has to be around the corner. Radiation does zap your strength. It took about a week and I was sleeping a lot. I love the mask idea. Go Team Deadpool!
  28. 2 points
    "...no more Michelle Bashing, for that will not help" And the support and encouragement has worked really great, right? You are in deep denial my friend. You don't even come out and say "I smoked". Instead you talk in some abstract terms about your junkie thinking telling you to have one. I had to read your post twice to figure out that you actually relapsed. Again. I, for one, am going to put you on "ignore" because I think that's exactly what you are doing with the advice you are getting here. Hope you figure this all out. You don't know what you're missing.
  29. 2 points
    You seem to have thought this all through and know what you are doing as well as what you have to do in order to break free of being a slave to this addiction so I have no words of wisdom to add other than to say that living for a prolonged period of time in this constant state of early withdrawal is not the way anyone should live. You are in fact making things worse for yourself. Wouldn't it be so much easier to bite the bullet for a few ugly days, get by the worst of it and start healing? I really hope you find your key to maintaining your commitment to quit over a period of time that lasts for more then just a few days because in the end, that is what's required for any of us that want to quit.
  30. 2 points
    Something to warm your soul This trip paid for from saving on buying cigs The benefits keep on comin"!!
  31. 2 points
    More unexpected benefits will be forthcoming ! and after a bleak Winter, the first buds will appear and burst into the fresh new Greens of Spring. The lushness will delight you and it is something you don't really appreciate unless you slog through a Winter. Here in NOLA, it is a green jungle most of the year, unless we get a freeze and then it is devastating. So happy you are with us and finding benefits with your quit. Reward yourself, especially in the dark days of Winter.
  32. 2 points
    Good for you, Dragon....solitaire was my go-to and still is! If I knew how to knit or crochet, I would have probably made thousands of things by now....?
  33. 1 point
    me too, Hellkat. Thinking about you.
  34. 1 point
    I am so glad you connected with your neighbor. Sounds like you both will be supporting each other. Hellkat, you are doing awesome. I don't think your doctor will have a problem with the cannabis. I am finding more and more people who have had there doctors recommend it. Sleep well tonight.
  35. 1 point
    Those wigs are really pretty hellkat I favor the first one best too I like Jordan's idea about your mask. Maybe crayons or magic markers? Maybe your local craft store would have some more ideas. Have fun at the lake house today and you're doing awesome on your quit too!
  36. 1 point
    I want your positive outlook hellkat! And yay to only three more treatments Your air conditioner sounds awesome, we could sure use an air conditioner this week as it's been hot! There rare here on the Central Coast so we just have to suck up these hot days and eat ice cream lol. Team Deadpool for the win!!!
  37. 1 point
    Thanks Richard. Congratulations to you as well. 2 months is quite an achievement! I am finally beginning to have really good times of my day. thought I would never reach this part. The support I received from my quit buddies really helped me. I have to disagree with much of the info I've read about the quitting time table and how long it should take you to feel free of nicotine. Everyone's quit is different. I wish it had been easier for me. I seriously thought that I was doomed to have cravings all day for the rest of my life. Today, I can say, is sooooo much better than just 2 weeks ago. Look forward to your life without nicotine! Freedom is comming! !!
  38. 1 point
    Yes..... I love to randomly shout out things...….So out of character which makes it funny...…….which makes me laugh...….which causes a distraction.....which diminishes a thought...… I LOVE THIS PLACE!!!
  39. 1 point
    Nothing wrong with ya my friend. @2 months in myself. Feel just as bad, but people and doctors keep saying hang in there. Gonna change. Fight man fiiiiiiiiiiiiight. If it went easy all the time everyone would quit. Keep it up you are doing great.
  40. 1 point
    Richard I’ve been taking Chantix for 3 week and the body aches and Fatigue have been awful at times. I’m a heavy smoker and have been smoking for 40 plus years. So I can feel your pain. I felt like I had the flu. And I quit 13 years ago and it wasn’t has bad. But I still got sick for 3 or 4 days. My body aches are getting better now. But I’m still smoking 3 or 4 cigarettes a day. It will get better it’s just are bodies purging themselves of all the toxins put in them. Hang in there. It will get better. And it will be worth it.
  41. 1 point
    I think the NRT helps people wean off the nicotine. Eventually you do want it gone. This is you journey, so you will have to decide your path. Once the nicotine is out of your body, quitting is just a matter of redirecting your thoughts. Don't let this addiction control your life anymore. You can do this.
  42. 1 point
    Thanks for the support ! I'm grateful to be a part of this group!! Keep up the quit!!
  43. 1 point
    Great entry Tammy and one that will help many people in the future. Thank you for sharing....
  44. 1 point
    @WeegieWoman Dear god i am thankful for a lot of things I have no idea why i felt like posting it like this , lol One more stupid entry for my blog , lol ]1 esreV[ emit siht thgir sleef ti dnA emit gib eht htiw esruoc hsarc siht nO rednuht tnatsid eht ot dnim on yaP yob ,rednow htiw daeh sih sllif yad weN emit siht thgir sleef ti syaS enil thgir eht dnuof dna dnuora ti denruT riS ,evila eb ot yad dooG dias eh ,evila eb ot yad dooG ]surohC[ lennut ruoy fo dne eht ta thgil gnihtoos eht taht eb ot semoc ti nehT yaw ruoy gnimoc niart thgierf a tsuj sI lennut ruoy fo dne eht ta thgil gnihtoos eht taht eb ot semoc ti nehT yaw ruoy gnimoc niart thgierf eht tsuj sI ]2 esreV[ siht ekil thgir leef ti t'nseoD hsiw sih ot llaf seceip eht llA yob drawer kciuq taht rof rekcuS dias yeht drawer kciuq taht rof rekcuS ]surohC[ lennut ruoy fo dne eht ta thgil gnihtoos eht taht eb ot semoc ti nehT yaw ruoy gnimoc niart thgierf a tsuj sI lennut ruoy fo dne eht ta thgil gnihtoos eht taht eb ot semoc ti nehT yaw ruoy gnimoc niart thgierf eht tsuj sI yaw ruoy gnimoc s'tI yaw ruoy gnimoc s'tI ]oloS ratiuG[ ]surohC[ lennut ruoy fo dne eht ta thgil gnihtoos eht taht eb ot semoc ti nehT yaw ruoy gnimoc niart thgierf a tsuj sI lennut ruoy fo dne eht ta thgil gnihtoos eht taht eb ot semoc ti nehT yaw ruoy gnimoc niart thgierf eht tsuj sI @johnny5 Thanks Wow i am exhausted to the max in the evening , i cannot stay focused in the evening , with my 2 year old kid around it is a bit hard to stay focused , lol @bakon I am trying to conquer the emptiness in the evening these days .From 6 to 9:30 or 10 , i am so out of focused , tired , dull and exhausted . So i am trying to figure out ways to stay fresh somehow during the evenings
  45. 1 point
    Did you write those yourself? Thats pretty impressive. I can relate.
  46. 1 point
    It's good to reflect like this every once in a while. Keeps us grounded to reality and what others are exposed to daily. Things we just take for granted all too often.
  47. 1 point
    It is going through a reaction... its called detox....use the gum... I did... but to really quit you will need to give the gum up eventually too.... but your brain is screaming for its nicotine hit... it can't re-wire properly while you are still having the gum... so sure, use it for the worst of it but eventually you need to man up and face the detox horror head on without the gum or you will never truely be free.
  48. 1 point
    OK - thanks Weegie! This will help a lot more people than you might think
  49. 1 point
    The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing
  50. 1 point
    Good for you!!! Whatever it takes...just do NOT smoke! You did the right things
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