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  2. Absolutely Positively NOPE !!!!!
    7 points
  3. G’day NOPE starts my day
    6 points
  4. I've been sick a few days and today I feel much much better, but also home alone since Friday. And that gives me way too much time to think, ponder, over-analyse and lose myself in addiction thinking. So I hung on like a crazy woman. Reading a lot of this and watching a lot of that to keep my head clear in a very literal way. I also wrote down a lot of lies that my addiction keeps telling me in this quit. Time to address one and deal with it. "What does it matter anyway, you are not worth it... " This is a big red flag to me. I have been depressed in the past, and addiction is a mean s.o.b. I'll spare you the details, but I have been fighting and working real hard to be " just happy" from a real early age, and I am happier than I have ever been at the moment. Until that tiny moment I feel lonely or panicky or anything that even resembles that past feeling, my brain reverts back to suicidal tendencies. Not that I want to- but my brain is so programmed to have that way out, that it will go there without my consent. Like a tiny seed that will always be there and starts growing the moment you look away. And my addiction is using that to wiggle it's way in again. On one side - " The urge to find peace and quiet" . Because that's what I actually wanted.. not death, but I was so tired of fighting and surviving.. I just wanted some peace and quiet. And on the other side - "The need to stop fighting and let life go" - and the cig will make sure off that eventually. But I choose Life Every day Actively And I enjoy the heck out of it! I wanted to address the topic of depression and addiction, because I know many are struggling and are ashamed to go into these kinds of thoughts. I have learned to talk about them, openly. The thoughts and feelings are only a danger if I keep them in the shadows and hide them. And I don't want to be part of this statistic - I want to be the exception to the rule! NOPE!!
    4 points
  5. Has it not occurred to anyone that he might have gone to Mars for a break. The internet connection there is crap.
    4 points
  6. I remember asking my niece and nephew if I smelled that bad when I smoked. They were nice enough to say not THAT bad lol
    4 points
  7. Hi Viv, I've had depression for most of my adult life and it's a bitch. It feels like it's not the real me but that side can be a bully and kick away the real me from time to time. I know where you're coming from. I like to think that only intelligent people get depression so I comfort myself with that sometimes. In the smoking context, we both know cigs do jack shit to help anything or are a medication for any condition. My level of depression is not changed one iota with or without cigs so I may as well be depressed without smoking than be depressed with COPD or cancer. I've been on and off anti-depressants for years and it's about time we removed the stigma from such maladies and openly say, "Yeah, I've got depression. I've a job and family and it's managed. It's a physical illness, what's the big deal with you knowing?" Of course other folks may not be able to be employed with the condition but the above is just my example. There are many levels of depression and I'm mostly OK but when I'm not, my world seems to have a grey coating on it where nothing seems interesting or worth the effort and there's a lot of pessimism about big and even small matters eg. I'm not even going to watch England play, I know they'll lose. That was a 'small matter' example by the way. So there it is for all the World to read - I've got managed depression and if anyone thinks less of me for that, they can f**k off! Comon Viv, we can whinge and moan together but never with a cigarette in hand, that's the only stipulation.
    4 points
  8. Am experiencing the cleansing cough right now. My quit so far is like me, always on schedule haha
    4 points
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  10. Didn't Celine Dion do that song with that ear piercing wailing that only she can assault people with? Would rather go down like the titanic than listen to Celine !!
    3 points
  11. I've heard some things but refuse to elaborate...
    3 points
  12. Thank you Vivianne and Phil for sharing your stories. Many of our members who also have depression have found that with time they had fewer episodes since quitting. I hope this is true for you two as well
    3 points
  13. How's the quit going @Steph2019?
    3 points
  14. Well, you two are not alone. I have battled anxiety and depression my whole life. There are many of us. You are right mightyboosh, I am still depressed when smoking, so why smoke. Depression is an illness and is treatable. Sometimes it takes the right doctor and medication. Viv, I am glad you choose life and have decided to quit smoking. You will get more powerful with your quit. If the depression becomes unmanageable, see your doctor.
    3 points
  15. Has it ever snapped?
    2 points
  16. Smsing the house mate to make sure the slow cooker gets turned on round noon so that we can have dinner....lamb stew....might be the last stew of the year...33°c for thursdee.
    2 points
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  18. I noticed he hasn't been around too. I hope you are doing ok, @Martian5
    2 points
  19. Aww poor you .....that must have been gross....it's weird you carnt smell it while your smoking ..
    2 points
  20. @Linda Thomas you are one strong and though cookie! I admire your honesty and openess too. Thank you for sharing!!
    2 points
  21. This is why we suggest ....you buckle up ..... Good for you V ....working through the craves ....
    2 points
  22. 3 You don't sound well enough yet. I advise you sleep for a few hours or days.
    2 points
  23. I am on a wonderful quit rollercoaster ride... I just got home after a long walk, breathing away a craving - got some healthy and non healthy snacks and getting ready to write a new blog post
    2 points
  24. Astros vs Nationals in the World Series. I can hear the advertisers crying all the way from Canada
    2 points
  25. NOPE! Happy Friday, everybody!
    1 point
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