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3 1/2 weeks - good day

lml

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For me, it seems things have settled down this week and are back to a good balance. Been a wild and crazy couple of weeks. It is a good thing I can laugh at myself. 

 

This week, I get a thought of going and having a cigarette about 4 or 5 times a day. It usually happens in one of two situations.

 

One scenario I am intensely engrossed in something I am doing and then accomplish or figure out how to accomplish it. I feel a great sense of accomplishment and am "proud" of myself. And the into my brain pops the though " time for a smoke...you deserve it". So I just tell myself...NOPE!  You got things backwards gurl. What you really deserve is NOT to have one. Got 

And I laugh at myself and how absurd that thought was.

 

Another scenario is if I am working in something and hit a roadblock - just can't Figure it out. Thought comes in...ahhh but going and having a cigarette ALWAYS helped you figure things out before. So I just tell myself - NOPE, smoking  not an option anymore. Come on...you know that is stupid. Go for a nice walk, clear your thoughts and see things from a different perspective and you will figure it out. It wasn't the cigarette that helped, it was getting away from it all that helped you figure things out. So I go for a nice walk figure it out. 

 

But it is not a crave or urge. It is just a thought that pops in quickly, but then vanishes quickly. 

 

I understand why week 1 is called hell week, week 2 is called heck week and week 3 is called tricky week. 

 

I don't miss smoking. I dont want to smoke. I like not smoking. 

 

When i see my smoking buds smoking, i dont think anything of it. When i smell a cigarette, the only thing i worry/wonder about is if the second hand puff will delay my nicotine receptors from going back to normal. I wonder... But i do hope that they too will soon begin to see...

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Sazerac

I am so happy witnessing your quit and reading your progress, Iml.  It is really great.

These three and one half weeks have shown us all that quitting smoking/nicotine is possible and rewarding.

 

Taking breaks, especially  'thinking' breaks took some re-training for me.

Smoking and thinking was a pattern to be replaced and turns out to be much more productive than a nicotine infused think.

 

I would sit on my back steps like I did when I smoked and breathed, cleansing breaths, slow breaths.

Five or six deep conscious breaths laid the groundwork for some really good thinking, problem solving etc.

 

For me it required focus and intent and ferocity in the beginning.

After a while,  in fact,  you may already be finding, your oxygen infused breaks are your new improved groove.

 

I'm wondering if you are still faking a happy smile with your wine in the evening.

It was funny imagining your grimace turning into a defiant grin.

 

S

 

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Good morning Saz, my dear friend, helper, teacher, encourager and angel! :)

 

I like finding my new and improved groove - fun!

 

And now, the smile comes natural. Lots of re-training for me.

 

Amazing to me that when I came to this forum, I was so full of fear and doubt; felt so weak and vulnerable. But you saw through it.

 

Hope you are having a wonderful day. :) 

 

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Good Morning, Iml,

It was excellent you sos'd and as the  QT troops amassed,  your inner troops swooped in and beat your crave.  Bravo !

It is You who is committed to Your decision.

Mind blowing,  the strength we have when we are clear in our decisions.

Are you catching more glimpses of the Superhero you have become to yourself ?  She is friggin' awesome.

 

There may be more bumps.  They will diminish not only in frequency but, also in intensity.

Still, don't be surprised at the rogue crave that appears to have great power.  This is a ridiculous lie.

They don't have power.  You have power. 

All you need to do is breathe and wait it out.  Scream, shout and stomp, wait it out.

 

I hope you are rewarding yourself often.  This is really important and useful in taking back control of brain receptors. 

 

It is a mighty fine quit you are building, friend.  We are all so proud of you.

S

 

 

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