https://www.quittrain.com/blogs/entry/910-made-it-past-2-weeks/ I completed day 17 without cigarettes.  I learned on this forum to drink a lot of water, and that advice made my cravings easier to handle.  This is the place to find lots of help. I'm getting some "surprise perks" from quitting.  I was always the slowest person in the house, and my family had to wait around while I functioned in slow motion.  But now that I've quit, I get things done even faster than my husband.  And he's stunned!  I think smoking slowed down my entire life.  And it's tremendous fun to suddenly be faster, without even trying.   But apart from the perks, I don't have smoking as a way to numb my feelings anymore.  We moved about 7 months ago, and although it was a practical choice, it was against my wishes.  I used to live in a very sunny place, and now I live with a lot of rain and snow.  Lots of gray skies, mud, slush, ice and bare trees.  A symphony of gray and brown.  No, not a symphony..it's the Mamas and the Papas.   You know the song..."all the leaves are brown, and the sky is grey, I've been for a walk, on a winters day, if I didn't tell her, I could leave today....California dreamin, on such a winters day..."   Yeah, I hear that song in my head all the time, because that's how it looks outside.  It's so gray, I can't believe it.  And I really wish I could go home.  But smoking is separate from this.  Smoking won't bring back my sunny porch, or the hummingbirds I used to feed, or the lizards, or the funny desert trees.  It'll just poison me and kill me.  Smoking shouldn't have anything to do with the fact that I moved, or that I'm crushed with homesickness.  I'm so proud of myself for quitting, but I wish I didn't crave cigarettes when I'm upset.  I'm working on being constructive when I'm upset, but I don't think it will happen over night.  But still, it feels so great to have quit.  There are no words for it...I am thrilled to be free!!!! 

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