I have lied to myself for so many years,

It's true, I have made things worse for who was around me,

It's true I have been selfish,

It's true I hit rock bottom.

For so many years I have lied to myself, I became a professional on excuses,

I wasn't good at it but I used them anyways, I know I could have done better,

I know I could've helped the people around me but my life choices have lead me not to,

Today the truth is, I have looked back on all the photos, on all the videos I've done while being that person,

And I can truly say that, keeping a record of the person that I once was, was the best thing in the world!

I will not be that person anymore, I will not find an excuse anymore,

I will deal with it!