Lust4Lifehttps://www.quittrain.com/blogs/blog/123-lust4life/ Another Alley Cat

 

]]>enFriendshttps://www.quittrain.com/blogs/entry/870-friends/ I have several circles of friends.  I divide them up.  Maintain relations with each of them . We are all in varying stages of life, big kids, little kids, no kids, stress, remorse, and contentment.  I never really thought about how I categorize(d) my friends.  Perhaps it was mentioned in passing many years ago in between banter with the bartender.  I see it -so much more clearly now that I observe my young child's social interactions.  I observe through a microscope and telescope.  Both are equally helpful. 

 

It is amazing how I can still be an outcast in social situations.  The varying social situations I often find myself in.  Nearly two years ago, I was the only smoker.  So I thought.  Secret smokers are everywhere!  I always felt on edge, wanting to leave the discussion or party just to go home and smoke in the privacy of my own patio.   Being a secret smoker sucked.  I felt isolated. 

 

I have a new set of friends.  I've kept the old.  It is safe now for me to socialize with my old friends that still smoke.  Safe because I am not a smoker.  I stay inside and they spend more time outside.  Again,  I feel isolated.  

 

They are safe because I am not a cheater.  I'm inside alone with their card hands face down on the table.  

 

I'm honest.  

 

I'm a non-smoking, non-cheating crappy card player. 

 

 

]]>870Mon, 20 Aug 2018 01:18:30 +0000Bingehttps://www.quittrain.com/blogs/entry/860-binge/ Unchartered territory.  No oars, motor, navi, or map.  Howdy!!!   Still not sure whether or not this content will be read.  How did you quit smoking?  Was it planned or on a whim?  Mine was both.  I planned, quit, then failed,.  Tried again and again.  Until I finally quit.  Just quit.  Decided that was that, read Carr's book again (yep, first time failed), found a supportive forum.  I quit. Quit. Done. Next. Moving on.  I did not binge prior to my final quit.  I have binged before.  The mentality being -"I'm going to smoke and drink until I'm so sick I'll never want to do this again!"

 

So, after 18+ months, I am thankfully labeled a non-smoker. ex-smoker,  PERSON THAT DOES NOT SMOKE!

 

I don't smoke.

 

I eat.  And ate.  A lot. 

 

I ate too much over the course of 18 months. 

 

This evening I binged.   On food.  And drink.  

 

I re-read the books.  

 

A different quit starts tomorrow.

 

I binged today knowing I would not tomorrow.

 

This weight must come off & it will.

 

I quit smoking.  I can do anything.

 

And I will.

 

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